there has been many ups and downs ever since..every single moment of the day my mind wiil be like a non stop train.speaking of train, i took a train to my uncle boys wedding! i love the train..the sound of it the scenery. like the trees and the rural parts of malaysia.=) oops!digressed.coming baack. i've been thinking and thinking. trying to find answers why things happened. what i could do to prevent it from happening. i do reflections like everyday. what have i done wrong what ive done right.
i will take constructive comments but your sweeping statements wont change me.
i know what im good at or not.
friends forever?promises made when we were naive and have not known any better on how cruel the world get, true colours not shone at.
these are all superfcial promises unless you prove me wrong
im tired of thinking about the past i want to move on
be my normal self without all this moodswings
it dampens my spirit or maybe even shorten my life span
eh will it?
i hate it when the two of them just leave for weekends or holidays. they do it tooo frequeent.RESPONSIBILITIES!! you guys are not showing it!when im sick with like a leaking pipe nose and and my head feels like i was just hit by a hammer! whatever i dont care..

ive been trying to be back on my feet not slacking taking note of any slight ignorance i acquire
i have to understand all these concepts that ms ggoh is screaming
the understandable chemistry which i had pass with a C only recently!



i dare not hope for more
im scared